Today

Today - - i see the green buds outside my window..
locked away in my disease ridden prison ..
I for a change notice the outside
the outside that was always there..
the outside that will be there .. Its just a new me..
a new vision.. a new realization
life .. at the end of the long journey of death..
floating in the middle.
allured by the bright color, the nice smells
the promise of a touch
the promise of life..
confused.. with today and the promised tomorrow
which is Real?